When I started to write this post, all I could think about was one of Ava's favorite songs . . . "My God is so big, so strong and so mighty. There's nothing my God cannot do!" True, true!
You'd think I would have learned by now. God's way is the best way . . . always. God's timing is the right timing . . . always. Why don't these truths stick? Why is it so hard to trust my Creator and Savior?
In June when God spoke His call for our family to adopt, we were so ready to go! I wrote this post after finding out that with AGCI we would have to wait until December to apply. I really was crushed at the beginning. So much so that I wanted to chose a different agency. Praise Jesus for a wise husband that has learned how to calm me down, get me rational again and point me to God! Amen?
Quickly I had a true peace about the time of waiting and actually looked forward to what God had in store. These past few months have been busy, stressful, and amazing. God has taken both Chad and I to new depths in our relationship with Him. I can honestly say that our marriage has never been healthier and more God-honoring (I hope!). God has used this time in major ways to refine who we are individually and as a family seeking to follow Christ.
God has also used this time to show how big He is. I look back now and can't imagine going through this last week of beginning paperwork at that time. We mailed our contract to AGCI today. Along with that goes $7390. Did your jaw drop? That's a lot of moolah! A lot of moolah that we didn't have 4 months ago, but have today! Through family, friends and even strangers, God has provided what we have needed so far to start this process. We are able to walk forward at this point without completely freaking out about these beginning payments. Because of this, we have a greater trust as we look at the money still due . . . He will provide!
How humbling that I am now praising Jesus for these past few months and absolutely wouldn't want it to have happened any other way. When will I learn?! I'm sure God is asking Himself that same question!! We can look back at God's hand in all of this and move forward with great confidence into more unknowns. We can share of His provision and plan to our kids, our family, our friends and anyone who will listen in order to bring Him glory. God is good!
Our packet of info . . . lots of paperwork!
Can't you tell Chad loves reading a 20 page contract?!
Nothing to do with the adoption, but aren't my Who Dat kiddos cute?!